A Year Tomorrow

Thursday, May 27, 2010

It'll be a year tomorrow. One whole year past since my dad died.  This week has been hard, harder than I wish for any of you to know!  Though I hadn't seen my dad in years (and yes I regret that everyday), I still miss him dearly!  For the most part I was, and still am, a daddy's girl!  I can't help it.  Though he wasn't around much, and I don't really remember doing much with him.  What I do remember sticks out very clearly.  Those memories will live forever, and have helped shape who I am.  My father never got to see my daughter, but I was told that every time someone would come to see him, her pictures would be all over the coffee table and he would proudly say "Look at that beautiful girl, that's my grand-daughter!"  It's very hard to write this post, but I know that I must.  I must tell people what a wonderful man he truely was, and also to help me let it out.  I haven't cried much since I found out, at least not when it wasn't expected.  I have trouble letting my feeling out in that way.  It hurts too much to think about, so I just try to bury it deep inside!  Though everyday I cry for him.  I miss much more than anyone could ever imagine!  He may not have always been there, but I knew he care'd, and has and always will be in my heart!  The two hardest days of my life, was the day I got that call, and the day me, my brothers, and my sister had to put his ashes in the ocean!  I wish everyday of my life that I would have just flew down to Florida to see him.  But now it's too late.  Please don't make the same mistake that I did! Go see your loved ones, call them when your thinking about them, and always tell them you love them when you feel it!  Never just assume that they'll be there, because nobody is here forever!  Hug, and kiss the people you love, and tell them just how much they mean to you! Love is something that lasts forever!  We put my dad's ashes in the ocean because he was a free spirit.  Always going, and doing things.  He loved the water, how beautiful it was, and how far it streched.  I saw this saying not too long after he died and it's from me to him!
"I lost a tear in the ocean, and I'll stop loving you when I get it back."
I'm not too sure who said it, or where I found it, but it's from me to him!

Dennis Lee Morgan


  1. I'm sorry you lost your father :( I can't imagine what it will be like to lose a parent.

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  2. Wonderful post. Although I am in tears now. Both my parents are gone now. My dad too was not around much, but like you, the memories I have are precious.

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